Archive for December, 2008

I told you so

Wednesday, December 17th, 2008

Alas, the predicted calamity descended upon me. It is not a self-fulfilling prophecy for that refers to desirable outcomes only. What is studied is a science, as it yields predictable outcomes. It is not natural but rather supernatural, not physical but metaphysical. In good and bad times, I worship the same God. Of course, when thus arrives the advice from Senegal, I can only say hasbunallah wa ni’mal wakeel.

Akal… bukanlah gadget mainan. Yang diucapkan ialah membunuh nafsu, bukan bunuh jasad! Mereka bicara tentang jasmani, saya pula ruhai! Tapi apakan daya, sudah terlanjur kata.

Forced ego crushing experiences

Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008

This business that I have come to undertake and which has remained incomplete is no joke.

By hook or by crook, my ego will be crushed. That was the promise.

I could have taken the easy way by slaying it myself. But too stubborn, I am. It is still as big as ever.

What I have experienced lately has been very unpleasant. A warning, it seems, of the inevitability that the ego has to be crushed. Whether I like it or not. Things will be taken away from me until what is left is, I predict, nothing but al-Haqq.

Hold tight!